dance.stress.

okaye im so readie to post a long entrie
hais.how m i gonna start of wif?!...


some times i juz reallaye wonder
wadd euu ppl r tinkin.
i dunnoe im ova-sensitive i guess.
i can practicallaye sit bside euu
yet euu tok to everi1 else arnd euu xcept mie
m i invisible or smthn?!
tt euu juz lo0k rite thru mie?!
or r euu juz to0 tall to see mie.
if i din tok to euu,wud euu haf tok to mie.
m i ur fwen?!sorraye im bein paranoid
it juz seems like if i dun do smthn
euu ppl wudnt even notice myy presence
wadd m i?!euu ppl can juz tok toktok
n dun even care tt i m there
n tt i dun even understand a single shiit
yy cant euu ppl juz tell mie thins?!
waddeva.euu can sae im bein unreasonable
juz throwin myy temper.gettin so mo0die
n all tt dun euu all eva noe wadd caused all tis
it juz seem as thou i disappeared.
n myy soul ish juz stalkin euu ppl.
euu cant see mie yet i can.
i still belief im alive.or m i juz dead.
i dunnoe wadd to sae.
i guess i juz dun haf the rite to comment.

studies.S T R E S S.
i reallaye feel like runnin awae
everitime euu ppl tok abt studies
euu gt tt high.euu arent contented.
euu r so stress.euu aim 4 tis.
euu r so shock euu scored to well
lalala~ its nt tt its a crime or smthn
i juz gt irritated.yeah cos i dun score well
it seem so unfair.i studied.
i reallaye did.n euu juz scored so much betta.
euu ppl r all fakers.tellin mie euu all din study
euu all r liars.i hate all tis crapp.
if euu did juz tell mie.
dun gt back a results n juz act as if
wadd i shud haf done betta n all tt k
its no use.euu ppl juz kp naggin.
do euu even noe how tuff tt paper was.
did euu even bothered abt myy studies in the first place
do euu understand wadds goin thru mie
do euu even noe tt i cryy all the time.
n all euu ppl do ish yak the whole dae
tellin mie wadd to do.
when euu ppl dun freakin understand at all
n euu ppl r here in myy lives to encourage mie
tellin mie abt moral values saein its more imp
God shud b placed 1st in everithin
yet euu r pressurizin mie abt studies
tellin mie its more imp
to haf a gd job b educated.
so tt the parents wun gt lo0k down
n blamed 4 nt tchin the child
wadd shiit issit.contradiction.
i tot havin 1 at hme naggin was enuff.
now euu r here naggin to0.sickenin.
euu sae tt i onlauye come to euu 4 money
4 material stuffs
4 thins i nd.
thn wadd else do i go to euu 4
moral support?!hello wadd rubbish.
like euu can wadd euu tell mie ish
how to work in the city.
wadd else tell euu abt myy results
euu scream at mie like i was abt to end myy life.
tell euu abt dance.
like euu r so freakin interested abt it.
wadd crapp r euu tokin abt mans.

im sorraye i gt so aggitated
while tokin to euu on the fone.
i mean euu ppl shudnt judge us
abt wadd happen laz time
its ova.like long ago.
yesh we dislike her.
r euu saein euu ppl dun.
its nt farnaye i noe.it wasnt meant to b
im nt tryin to deny tt it wasnt our fault
bt yy issit alwaes directlaye to us.
the fingers r juz alwaes pointed towards us.
its nt like we din tryy to help
euu dun even noe wadd's happenin now in dance
4 the past 4 practice wifout euu guys
dance stil went on.tchr even praised us.
the sec1s haf improved.n its nt becos of euu ppl
its becos we helped them.
im nt implyin tt euu ppl din help n all tt.
its juz tt i wanna make it clear tt
ppl we dislike aint affectin dance
thou we mite nt b bonded.
euu cant rush thins now yea.
euu gt to understand how the sec1s r feelin
euu cant juz go to them shake their hands
n act like euu ppl r so united.
tis r all fake fake fake.
all pretence.euu wan it to b sincere
nt juz rushin thru the process of fwenship
like tt euu wun reallaye understand how the feel abt stuffs.
euu can act like euu r so close wif the juniors
bt r euu reallaye!?behind them euu mite
juz tok badd abt them
waddeva euu ppl tink we r doin to the sec1s
we treat them equallaye.
we mite juz sae n show some faces
bt its juz 4 funn
okaye its nt farnaye i gt it.
bt aint dance supposed to b funn
euu wanna haf a stern wan ?!
hu wudnt b bored to death
euu haf passion 4 dance
euu r there to enjoy n nt there to go disciplinary trainin
i noe there shud b some discipline
bt dun euu tink euu gt to 1st make
the sec1s enthu abt dance
wud euu wanna c the percentage of sec1s
increase 4 nt goin to dance?!
wadd wud dance be like thn
of cos euu wan them to njoy n lurfe dance
like how we do.it juz isnt tt wae euu ppl tnk it shud b
yesh i noe euu seniors feel sadd
n ish afraid dance wud fall apart.
bt seriouslaye do euu tink it wil
becos we dun haf a gd relationship wif each other
i dun tink so.yeah we shud be enjoyin
each other's fellowshiip n stuff
can euu honestlaye tell mie euu lurfe
everi single person on earth
euu gt wadd i mean rite.
at least we tried to control our mouths
n treat her equallaye.
we even helped her when she doesnt noe
wud euu guys haf done tt
if euu ppl hate a person so much
we wave to her everidae
it mite seem she's actin n stuff
bit at least we respond to her.
euu cant see on wadd we done
wadd has she done to us.
yet we din do anithin abt it.
she saed 1dollar gang was given tt name
cos they sell their bodayes 4 1dollar
tis ish SLANDER n they can sue her 4 tt
she's callin them a prostitute
they can ezlie sae she's FOC!!!
bt they din.they ren.yeah.
they cud haf juz had their revenge
bt they din.euu mite tink we r roudie noisie
n to0 much.doin stuffs bullyin a sec1
bt haf euu ppl noe wadd she did
all becos we r juz more straight 4ward
doesnt mean tt she did nth rong
she's purelaye angelic.
euu noe by saein tt to us
euu mite make us hate her even more
which in turn wud thn affect dance
bt i can gurantee euu it wun.
r we so evil- devilish in ur eyes?!
do euu noe how much we gif in to them
its alwaes us to do all the givin up
tellin them wadd to do.
informin them.
disciplinin them
n wadd do we gt back?!
their attitudes.ur bad feedbacks
do euu noe how much effort we haf put in
euu dun.euu kp tinkin we r slackin n all tt.
if we haf bn slackin
euu wun b able to see diinghong animore
she wud nt continue tchin us.
cant euu juz c tt we arent tt childish sec1s
we used to b.ppl mature.
its nt like we dun feel anithin 4 dance.
dun euu juz understand tt
we lurfe dance as much as euu guys
ppl can cryy 4 dance doesnt mean we dun cryy
we dun care abt it.
we juz dun like cryyin in front of ppl
do euu noe how we actuallaye felt.
we felt juz as badd juz tt we dun show it out.
ppl haf different perspective i noe.
guess we shud haf juz tok it out.
bt euu ppl dun tell mie how euu guys feel
i dunnoe how to tell euu ppl either
n everibodaye ish bz wif their own stuffs
its hard to make time 4 a meetin
n juz tok it out.
when we were sec1s the sec3s were there to tch us.
when we r sec2s we tch the sec1s.
euu mite tink im bein veh unreasonable
tt im spoutin rubbish.
tt i dunnoe abt wadd euu guys feel.
tt im juz bein so ignorant.
tinkin im alwaes rite n stuff.
i dun mind.i juz wanna sae tt
dance we'll N E V A fall.
i promise.
i failed to do myy part.
i'll do twice as much to help euu seniors
i'll help the sec1s chnge their attitude.
bt i nd time.i nd encouragement
euu noe i cant do it alone
no1 can.pls let us work hand in hand
n make our seniors proud of us.

sorraye if i offended ani1.
sorraye wendy.im juz sucha failure.
sorraye weiqi.i din noe how to reply euu.
sorraye marcela.im a disappointment.
sorraye to all seniors.
sorraye to junhao euu r rite.
i've chnged.i cant cope wif everithin.
im sorraye.i haf a to0piid temper.
im sorraye.i gt tt sickenin attitude
tt pisses everi1 off.
im sorraye.i juz aint mie animore.
im sorraye snjt.euu had to c myy black face.
im sorraye.i reallaye m.
myy life juz aint ez goin thru.
how i wished i hadd tt routine life euu haf-padey.
myy life sux.i juz dun seem to make thins rite.
i fail in everi single thin
im a disappoint to everi1.


i tot i cud juz dance awae.
bt dance became myy worraye.
i no longer cud 4gt abt everithin
i wanted to juz live freelaye
i juz wanted to stae happaye.
i tried.bt i tried to0 hard.
it turn to b so negative.
i gt no1 to turn to.
nth to help mie 4get stuffs.
waddeva.
ferrget abt everithin
nt ish imp.myy words r complete crapp.
i'll vanish.i nd a nuclear bomb.
juz enuff 4 mie to vapourise.
thnk euu ppl.

will the violins be playing? 21:36 ;