*siighs*

ytd i cudnt slp.was feelin restless
i dunnoe yy.
i noe i was physicallaye tired.
bt mentallaye alert.
tt's weiird.im bein weiird again.
it was so freakin dead bored
off the comp at 1o+
dada was sick
so there wasnt much naggin
*phew* hurhur
mama was bz handlin the kids
makin sure they gt to bedd
bro was bz tokin on the fone
like when has he evea stopp...
blah yada yada.
i din noe wadd to do
to prevent mie from
walkin arnd the hse again
[like i owaes do when im restless at nite]
i laid still on myy bedd.
starrin at myy scratchie blank fone
"a msg received"
there it goes again.hais
padey called.yay!!!finallaye
i wasnt b0red animore
thn i remembered i asked him to call mie
i wanted to ask him abt their auditions
tot they din gt in.
guess they did lols
yay *screams* wo0oho0o~
we tok 4 awhile.
as he watch his to0opiid animes
blehs =pPp i dun like them
eee...hurhur XD
thn his mama scold le.
so sorraye yea.
was so b0red.
continued msgin...
smthn struck mie
i hadd to tok to hao ge
he saed he wud tok to mie
yet he din call
wah seh he gd hmmph *gRr*
so i called him instead.
we tok abt loads of stuffs
i reallaye enjoy tokin to him
im sorraye i made euu frightened of mie
m i reallaye tt scarie?!
*rrawhhhs* hais...
i was so blo0daye *high* mans
so sorraye yea ppl disturb euu guys
hees =DD
finallaye myy eyelids were heavie
so i slpt.by tt it was alreadie 1am
it seems like 1o onlaye *siighs*
myy brain ish losin oxygen
im becomin a vegetable so0n
our msges staes stagnant.
i hate iit.i hate the wae euu sae stuffs
i hate smokers.i hate euu.
bt the thin i hate moz
ish tt i hate tt i hate euu...
i hate myyself.
i tryy to be more relacks
to b normal.
to take thins ez...
m i tryyin to0 hard
waddeva i dunnoe i dun care.


fwens out there.esp to ger.jam.jo.von
euu ppl r sadd.depressed.stressed

ger- pls dun stress urself out.i dun wanna c euu break down.euu once told euu r strong.i noe euu r.b strong.sorraye if i wasnt there 4 euu.i guess im juz occupied byy ridiculous stuffs.i wasted myy time.when i cud b there by ur side supportin euu not physicallaye bt at least morallaye.pls stae happaye! =DD

jam- myy dear jam.im sorraye i made euu feel so left out.euu din gif mie ani rong advice.i chose to listen to euu.im dumb.euu arent to b blame k.pls open up n tok to mie.i reallaye wanna understand euu betta.i reallaye do.im sorraye to push down myy problems thru ur throat.i cud haf gt to understand euu betta thn waste myy tokin to euu abt thins tt happen to b impossible.lurfe ya dearie dun tink to0 much.b happaye!

jo- euu r weiird.euu reallaye r.euu stopp tellin mie stuffs.guess im nt the appropriate person to tok to.its okaye.dun blame jamie.we juz wanna help euu.dun leave her out pls.euu r depressed yet euu dun wanna tell mie yy.i dunnoe how to help euu either.i noe euu r bz wif the tchr's dae performance.bt dun we mean anithin to euu.im nt saein tt its nt rite to b involve in it.bt wadd abt us.euu n leeming alwaes plann stuff.cant euu inform us abt it.i dunnoe wadd to sae.byy gettin reallaye bz mite prevent euu from tinkin abt stuffs.bt haf euu 4gotten abt us.euu dun seem to care animore...

von- myy dearez bestie.i noe to euu guys seem the world to euu[well at least half or more] sorraye i din mean to offend euu like tt.bt reallaye if euu tink abt it.from the time euu start openin to closin.haf euu eva stopp tokin abt guys guys guys n more guys.i noe euu like him alot.n i oso wanna noe hows it goin between euu n him.bt dun euu tink euu gt to prioritise!?like wadd comes 1st n all tt.do euu reallaye tink his worthhy goin thru all tis again?!cant euu juz dun like some1 4 a period of time.dun euu tink they guys r flo0din ur brain?!i reallaye dun understand euu.euu make mie feel so blurr.euu tell mie stuffs.yet to others euu sae diff.i dunnoe.m i bein ova sensitive or wadd.i gt nth to sae.im sorraye im worried.i dunnoe.i reallaye dunnoe.hais.

sorraye i din mention dina.
cos i noe shes the happiest among us
i dun wan her to b sadd.
she muz stae strong to brin the clique's spirit up yea.
i noe there r troubles.
i dunnoe either.dun read tis
its horrible hais.*siighs*


to junhao.stae happaye pls.
euu muz stae happaye to make them happaye
dun worraye =)))

will the violins be playing? 12:50 ;