*sobs* criies

it was 1+ on a humid quiet nite.
i cudnt slp.i hadd an afterno0n nap
i was feelin reallaye restless
myy mama was stil awake
hadd to off the tv *siighs*
n tt was myy onlaye entertainment.
i was dead b0red.
myy fiingers were movin.pressin
i was msgin some1
euu can sae a special some1.
well to mie at least. =)))
we toked alot.lamed alot to0
i smiled wheneva i received a msg
thn i realised national dae was ova alreadaye
- passed midnite.
myy bro was stil usin the comp thn...
i had some1 to accompanie mie downstairs
yayy! *screams* XD
myy fone rang.wif some weiird no.
waddeva i picked it up...
it was him.thn it wasnt.
he passed the fone to his fwen.
his fwen was weiird
he started tokin n askin mie to0piid question
i din noe how to reply him
i kept quiet moz of the time
he was quite "kong bu".i was alil afraid
i dunnoe hu i was tokin to
i cud hear him at the background
i cudnt stand his fwen.
thn euu told mie it was andy.
it was all a joke.
i dun understand yy?!
yy?!call mie.yy make funn of mie.
was it veh farnaye.m i reallaye so ez to lie to?!
m i so naive?!yy m i so naive
yy did i gt bluff by euu wu liao ppl
issit nice to joke wif some1 in the middle of the nite
it was pure makin fo0l of mie
i tot euu wud help.
bt euu din.euu sto0d there juz luffin.
was it reallaye so farnaye.
m i a clown to euu ppl
to entertain euu when euu r b0red
im nt some despo cheapo k
n i had a gd impression of euu at 1st
i was rong.euu r a totall jerk
n to haf tis to0piid mindset euu ppl wud chnge
at least b more civilised
i was rong euu belong in the wild
where all barbaric creatures live...
i tot euu were different from them
euu were special.guess i was rong
euu arent ani different after all
thn yy?!tell mie yy?!
yy r euu doin tis to mie?!
i hate euu.i reallaye do?!
sorraye its juz seriouslaye insultin to mie
was i rong to haf gt to noe euu
got to mix arnd wif euu
suddenlaye i realised how myy sko0l's guys
r so different.they r so gentlemen
n euu -no comments-
maebe its becos of the environment
the exposure euu ppl gt.
*siighs* tinkin of all tis i criied the whole nite
i dunnoe yy either.
was becos myy dignity was ruin.
i cud haf juz sto0d up n tok back
i dunnoe i feel so wobbly when euu r arnd
wheres the confidence i once hadd?!
euu destroyed myy confidence.
i will take myy revenge.
i m sorraye i dun like the tot of gettin bullied like tt
euu will gt back wadd euu did to mie
i dun care if euu join wadd gang
i criied cos i was disappointed at euu
euu tell mie all the stuffs
do euu tell tt to everi other gurl to0
r euu a flirt.
yy did i belief euu.
im juz some 3yr old kidd yea
i dunnoe anithin
im naive...
feelin helpless.wanted to tok to some1
i msged haoge.
sorraye i din mean to disturbed euu
euu slpt alreadaye.its okaye.
i called shawn.he was aslp to0
guess i was the onlaye 1 in singapore stil awake
im so dumb.luff at mie.
din call the other 5 as i knew they slp earlie
even if they dun.they gt other stuffs
im a small fry.i dun mean anithin.
myy stuffs arent important.its okaye
i was alone.i finallaye understo0d
how it was like to b reallaye alone.
no1 by ur side. *sobs*


im tokin crapp dun mind mie.
its juz a storaye. =DD
dun feel like tokin to ani1 at the momment
n seriouslaye shawn phua it isnt farnaye
n to tink i cud tok to euu abt stuff


im juz weiird.
bet euu dun understand a single thin.
hurhur.take care.
im a small fry in a bigg world
kill mie.no1 wil eva notices.
i dun mind bein
on the board of "missin ppl" 1dae
tt will b fun.
at least euu c ppl findin 4 mie.
or maebe no1 wil
thn i wud stae missin 4eva... >.<

will the violins be playing? 10:08 ;