Wednesday, September 07, 2005

8.oo am chinese remedial
sians.onlaye tok abt 2 ke wen
thn do ip survey...
cud hardlaye understand
wadd she was teachin.
i dun c the point of the lessons
it seems like she onlaye
wanna complete wadd she has to do
n nt whether we understo0d anot
*siighs* hais...
im so failin everithin.

i tot i cudnt care less abt it
bt i hadd to.
i din wan to.
bt i cudnt.it was a muz.

so yea after tt went to eat mac
thn to ger's hse
to do cme project x)
met jam at mac.
was okaye...


seems like euu haf been
drifted awae from us
i tot it was juz us.
i tot we made euu feel odd.
bt euu tink we r childish
euu so wanna grow up huh
pri sko0l euu tink
kindergarten ish childish.
sec sko0l euu tink
pri sko0l ish childish.
now nt even jc yet
euu alreadaye tink sec sko0l
ish childish.
wadd r euu?!
an adult?!to sae tis.
it juz pure silly`ness of ppl havin funn
euu arent enjoyin it
thn its to0 bard.
stopp actin euu haf so
M A T U R E D.
when euu haf a mindset
of a 3yr old kiiddie[xaggeratin]
im juz so pissed off
wif everithin euu sae
like does those words
eva go thru ur BIGG brain euu so haf
euu xcel in ur academic
yet words of such can
come out of ur mouth
r euu stuck up or wadd?!
tryyin to hang out wif older ppl
when euu r simply
at the age of 14?!
go0dness euu dun age tt faz
euu tink euu haf so matured.
sadlaye ur tinkin ish worst
thn tt of a 3yr old.
all euu eva cared wad euu.
all euu eva did was 4 euu.
all thins done benefitted euu.
all words cam out from euu
were thins like bullshiit.
cos euu dun mean wadd euu sae
it was crapp squeezed outt from
a useless arse...
damn iit im so crude.
sorraye.im juz reallaye angry.
ur myy fwen ;
i supported euu...
[well at least i tried]
i defended euu.
i stood by euu.
i helped euu in ani wae i cud.
i gaf in to euu.
i tried to understand euu.
i was blamed by euu.
i was hurt by euu.
i was destroyed by euu.
i was ostracise by euu.
after all tis i cud tolerate it ;
no more!!!
no more of such nonsense.
no more of all ur lies.
no more of xcuses.
juz no more...
im tired.so tired
i was nth to euu.
i xpected to0 much from euu
sorraye.
i failed to do myy part
as ur fwen.
im a disappointment in ur eyes.
i was neva a true fwen to euu.
euu doubted mie.
n i trusted euu.
i respected euu.
she idolises euu.
euu can do everithin wif her
yet cant wif mie.
im childish.
im ignorant.
im juz paranoid to even blogg
abt tis...
euu r myy fwen.
n i'll respect ur everi decision
as a fwen...
maebe i was ignorant.
maebe i was neva ur fwen
i juz tot i was
i ruin ur life bein ur fwen.
im sorraye.
ur life ish perfect wif juz him
i get it.i understand.
i've chnge?! ;
yeah maebe.
bt euu NEVA chnge...