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heh heh. x)
i betta rite a entrie
b4 myy LILbonbon
starts readin the startin
of myy previous post
which ish suuper pathetic
4 g0odness sake haha bahhs-

past few daes were stressful.
stardyin was all tt occupied
myy daily schedule.
like for the 1st time
in myy entire life
im like some NERD stardyin.
bt its okaye i guess it wud
be worth it afterall rite?!
haiis.God will b hereHEREhere wif mie.
((: hees.


yeah past few daes
hadd been tokin to
myy dearez lilBONBON -
its reallaye been ages
since i tok to her.
n i reallaye appreciated it.
thnk euu *muacks*
so yeah the feelin was juz
great ; like tokin to an ol`pal
euu lost contact 4 ages
n now she`s sittin in front of euu
tokin to euu abt everi single
thin tt happened in her life.
mans tell mie how
great tt sensation was x)

i suddenlaye realised
i din noe anithin abt myy fwens
nobodaye told mie anithin.
maebe cos i was indulgin
to0 much in myy own sorrow.
im sorraye.
or maebe euu ppl has juz
come up wif tis wonderful plann
to ostracise mie from everithin
n juz kp in the darkk.
cos euu guys dun tink
im trustworthaye animore.
i wud juz tell abt snjt stuff
to myy dance fwens ;
to outsiders...

its okaye if other ppl tink tt wae
i dun mind.cos they dunnnoe mie
bt euu guys were wary of mie
cos of tis.
thn i wud juz sae im utterlaye
disappointed in euu all.
cos euu guys shud noe
how im like.
or maebe tt`s juz mie to euu.
or euu ppl dun even noe.

myy dance fwens n i gather
to haf funn.
to tok abt farnaye stuffs.
to do the moz crazee thin.
to gossip.
to create havoc.
to juz come up wif planns[4 tt biitch]
we mite seem close.
bt actuallaye all we r tokin abt
r juz those stuffs.
wadd else do euu all wan?!

- m i rong to make fwens wif
ppl arnd ?!
- dun i haf the rite to cho0se
myy fwens ?!
- do euu all juz doubt mie ?!

i alwaes put euu guys 1st.
n tt`s finaled.
tryy chngin myy mind -
no one can xcept euu guys.


*seriouslaye STOPP the whispers.


lurfe isnt smthn euu cant force
a person to do.
if euu can ; tt isnt lurfe.
euu din value wadd once
was urs.
euu lose it.
dun xpect it to return to euu again.
cos it wun.
gif tt whole idea up.
it will neva.
its hard ferrgettin some1
i dun disagree.
esp wif some1 euu lurfed
n had shared memories together.
sometimes juz let it go.
no use.impressin tt person
1 more time.
there`s no more tt chemistry.
no more tt spark.
so get ova n done wif.
carrie on wif life.
yy stae stagnant n juz livin
in past memories n dreams
euu tink will 1 dae fufil
or become reality.
yy make urself feel so hurt.
yy brin ur chirpy spirits down.
yy hate ur fwen nothin else
bt tt kinda prob.
yy onlaye emphasize on
tt "bein-the-laz-to-noe" thin
well some1 has gt to b the laz
no1 likes to b the laz
neither can euu alwaes b the 1st.
at least euu knew?!
yy bother abt it.
affectin fwenshiips?!
i juz dun gt wadd de heck ish ur prob.

will the violins be playing? 22:14 ;