muggin

todae ; like ani other sat
for the past few weeks.
[exam periiod]
after tuition under myy cuz
went to sko0l there the mac.
was rainin.yuck.
met von.hao`ge.jessica.weijie
alreadaye there... xD
jessie.shawn.boonkai.
n others came lata.
aww myy po0r da-shuai ge
sick nia ; pathetic sore throat
haha damn farnaye ((:
okaye studied chap6.7 of history
done wif maths.
down to 8.9.1o.11.12.13.14 left.
n science n literature.
damn there`s juz so mani.
n i gt to complete
the 7 chapters left in a dae.
tml?!go0dness somebodaye
get a knife.use ur hand.
digg out myy heart.
how m i gonna do tt?!

*God help mie complete
myy revision.grant me tt
concentration i need.
avoid all distractions.
thnk euu-
prayers alwaes help yea x)

so yeah studied from 11+ - 6pm
after tt went to bball court ;
opp sko0l.
like i haven been there
since laz dec...?!
*memories*
thn sat there wait 4 mama
while the other guys plaed bball
to somehow distress them.
they were stil goin back
to mac to continue studyin.
w0ah.if onlaye i cud.
*envies* i cant studie at hme.
to0 comfy.i fall aslp ezlaye.
z Z z Z z... hurhur
sang hyms n hillsongs wif jezsie
plaed wif 3 lil kidds
so cute hees.tt gurl likes mie.
she doesnt like lilBONBON
kp bullyin her mans.
bt it was reallaye farnaye.
so funn.todae`s a good n bard dae.
well the upper part
was juz all the go0die stuffs
tt happen.


i saw euu again.
din i sae i din wan to see euu
; yet i wan to.
euu came studyin wif a gurl
ho0raye. xPpP
wadd r euu implyin.
i hate ur actions.
yy do euu haf to lie to mie.
yy do euu sae words 4 granted.
yy dun euu mean wadd euu sae.
haven euu alwaes wanted
to noe if i was eva jealous?!
i was.r euu finallaye satisfied.
yy wasnt i the gurl studyin wif euu
yy wasnt i the gurl euu were smilin to.
yy wasnt i the gurl...
yy do euu haf to do all tis.
can euu juz gif mie an xplaination.
i reallaye detez it.
i stared at euu.
n wished euu stared back too.
bt its juz tt we cant
seem to catch each others eyes.
we missed it...
juz a bit.a split second.
*siighs* yy?!
yy muz euu do smthn
i hate ppl hu does tt.
smokin?!stopp.
euu saed euu wud graduallaye
cut down.
n euu knew i hate it.
yet euu smoked
rite in front of myy eyes.
how dare euu.
dun i haf eyes to c 4 myyself.
gt tt stick our of ur life mans.
gt riid of those fwens
tt made euu smoked.
yy continue mixin wif them.
yy muz i juz see euu todae.
i wanted to avoiid euu.
yet i went to the place
where euu commonlaye hang out.
n ur hse ish suuper freakin near.
isnt tt juz like waddeva
'song shang men' thingy.
hais.i cant tink abt it now.
maebe the whole idea of juz
tryyin to chnge euu.
ish juz a to0piid immature naive goal
i wanted to achieve.
cos no matter wadd.
the results juz lies in front of mie.
it was a definite I M P O S S I B L E -
wadd was i tinkin?!
tryyin to ignore the fact.
damn.waddeva its ur life.
n i din mean to curse
euu to die of lung cancer.
sorraye-

*pls juz dun plae wif mie.
myy paperheart will bleed___


it has alreadaye been torn.
bled ; nt a single dropp left.
tear dropps becomin
dried stains on myy cheeks.

will the violins be playing? 22:23 ;