chnged skiin

change skin again.
i think its kind of MESSY.
i`ll do a better next time.

did only 3 cards.
oh well that`s all myy hands
can tahan mahs.
going crossed-eyes soon
x) ah!!!


everybody seem to be so occupied
with things they can do.
and me?!i`m just bored.
gosh.

NO MORE staying home for me.
tomorrow having some
youth group activities ; siians.
so not interested.
but i hope jerlyn or melissa`s going.
or i`ll b bored to death.
they are like my only 2 close friends.
that`s pathetic, i know i am.
my shuai brother`s organising.
how cool!!! *((:
his good to be so active
in all this programs
cos his so fun-loving and humourous.
he draws people`s attention.
i`m glad his so popular in church.
but i hate it when people
say i`m his shadow and
i`m trying to be like my bro.
whatever bullshiit lars.
i so don`t want to be popular like him.
we are different ; very in fact.
he still thinks i am that sweet little girl.
which i sure am not.
his an athelete and i am a dancer.
we are so so so so so different.
how can i ever be like him or vice versa.
i just want to be part of the group.
do something to serve God.
maybe i am part of it.
but i want to feel like i am 1 of them.
sadly, i don`t.
my character and theirs
seems like worlds apart.
i say things they don`t have a clue.
and they say things i don`t understand.
we just don`t cliick.
i know my brother has been
helping me to be more active in it.
but i just can`t somehow.
they turn me off of what they say.
maybe he doesn`t know
that i feel ostracised with them.
i don`t know.
myy purpose there is to
serve God.whether theirs is the
same or not.i don`t care.

*bahhs- parents coming back soon.

will the violins be playing? 18:57 ;