hidden emotions

misshed out todae`s outin ; cyclin.
cos of church n "family dae"
wo0oho0o~ -.- haiis
missh 2[four]`o5 so much.
*sniffsniff*


realised i cant xpress how i feel
i mite tink 1 wae yet displae another.
its juz so hard to articulate
how euu actuallaye feel deep inside.
bt it mite b a gd thin to0 ;
maebe?!
haiis okaye im at loss of words agaiin?!
there`s like so mani thins
stuck up in myy head.
bt i juz cant pour out everithin.
it comes out bits n pieces.
i gt so frustrated sometimes
when i juz cant figure out the
thins i wanna sae...
its like a total hodgepodge.
i cant seem to find
the words to describe how i feel.
guess cos myy vocab ish limited.
*siighs* it feels like hell.
wif everithin within mie.
yy cant i juz flush everithin out.
its total torture.
myy heart juz feels so heavie.
there`s juz to0 mani thins
blockin myy blo0d circulation.
i so wanna scream yet i cant find
the time to.
as time passes ;
more crapp pilin up.
formin a colossal mountain.
some1 demolished it pls.
bt no1 can cos its abt mie.
how i wiish to juz stabb
myy heart a thousand times.
to kiill tt immense paiin in mie.


i lo0ked at euu myy lil child.
i felt so helpless.
im reallaye sorraye.
it isnt the 1st time
i c euu tumble down.
like a defenseless infant.
i wanted to hold euu titelaye
n nt let euu go.
i wanted euu to noe
i will b there for euu all the time.
i wanted to show euu how
much i cared.
i wanted to ensure euu
tt thins will turn out okaye.
i wanted to juz make euu feel
warm as i see euu shiver so bardlaye.
i wanted to do so mani thins.
bt i cant.i felt so feeble
as i watch euu
go thru the adversitie.
i was worried sick.
im sorraye i wasnt much of a help.
do take care myy dearie.
i`ll b prayyin hard.
euu`ll get well.dun b afraiid.
lurfe ya.


words swimmin in myy head*

will the violins be playing? 18:13 ;