2oo6

guess i haven blogged since the starting of this new year huhh?!
have been real busy lately.
trying to get used to stuff, coping with homeworks and cca
haiis.sec3 life has been really tough/stressful.
its just the fiirst week and i already brokedown.
i can`t imagine how life would be the rest of this year.

it just started so badly.
with ms ridz catching me for
short skirt + tuck in too little + socks so low + "neck"band + fringe
"you come school to study not to be pretty"
whatever lars.she jealous then say lors hurhur kidding.
what a way to start the beginning of a day[1st day of school]
next day still have to report to her early in the morning.
next was mdm asnida, short skirt + shirt nt properly tucked in.
its so unfaiir lars k.please open your eyes and look at
girls from other classes.all because our class have more girls
doesn`t mean we are like some bimbos k.eediots.

plus myy mama has really been a paiin in myy arse.
its totally sucked inside out can.
piece of shiit. >.<
she can`t even understand what i`m going through.
it`s already tough coping with school stuff,
adapting to the new environment.
and here she comes making it a whole lot worst.
get lost lars.
all her excuses will be "i`m so stress in the office...blah"
SHUT UP!!!annoying people.


please give me a break.
please just be considerate.
can`t anyone just think about how i feel.
NO, they can`t.
all because i seem happy and
don`t bother about other stuff.
does not mean i`m inhuman and do not have emotions.
stopp being sucha jiian person lars.
you`re making me look down on you.
despising you, every siingle bit.
using dispicable methods to deceit me.
it`s bullshiit lars.i so so so so want to strangle you.


there`s so many homework.
so many money invovled to get 1o year seriies
for every subject.it`s totally ironic.
i`m going insane.and no one is there to help.
absolutely no one.



i had a best friiend for about 2 years already.
i`m happy she`s still in the same class as me this year.
i know it`s been hard this week for everyone.
please you are scarying me.
i know studies is important to you.
i really don`t know.
maybe you should know now why i went quiet sometimes
; or not.
but i don`t want to lose you myy friend.
i guess you realised i was annoyed.
i`m afraiid to tell you face to face.
but you`re getting paranoid about the entire "studying" thing
i know you`ll be upset when i tell you this.
really, i don`t want to lose a friend like you yea.
i hope you won`t be angry with me.
i`m not stopping you from being studious,
please don`t get the wrong idea.
i don`t know.i`m at loss of words.
hope you get what i mean.haiis don`t know lars.
take care *((:

will the violins be playing? 21:28 ;