sobs*

i`m not too sure who read the previous entry.
but i`m here to get riid of it. *((: hees
yar you all must be thinking, i`m some psychopath.
who just mood swings here and mood swiings there.
like shut up k.if you guys don`t know how
hurting your actions and speech was.
maybe to you it was some passing shiit.
but sorry it hell wasn`t some shiit.
that i would just flick through k.
it kept me thinking and almost ended up tearing.
you might not know how powerful words
can be.that feeling was worst than millions of daggers
stabbing through myy heart.
maybe i am back to myy paranoid self
or perhaps, i`m just some madd person.
who just imagine fucking shiit stuffs.

well, seriously i`m not and i don`t really care
if guys feel that i am.cos that just shows what
i was to you all, nothing but a small-fucking-fryy!
as i read althea`s spontaneous writing
about fair-weathered friends.how true can it be?!
yeah that`s what i am to you all huhh?!
and please don`t think i`m some deaf person
who can`t hear, and doesn`t know what is going
on around me."we[which is you,you and you] do skiit k?"
you asked them.but did you asked me?!N-O!no!!!
you know how it felt when we were once a clique,
and it has become you,you and you.
like what about me?!am i no loonger a friend of you guys?!
it was just plainly incondsiderate,self-centered attittude.
yes we are drifting apart.i don`t have to ask any1,
its fucking obvious.you are stubborn not to believe that its true.

during recess, you guys were talking.
i tried to asked what`s happening.
and what kind of response did i get?!
nothing.just a shake head that i shouldn`t be bothered
about it.like what the fucking hell!!!
how dumb i felt.why was i even siitting on the table?!
why wasn`t i siitting with nicholas at the near by table.
since i don`t fucking belong cos your stuffs are
sooooo~ not myy business why take up that space.

i realised, friends...not all friends stay by you
through thick and thin.most of them just
sort of be with you when your happy and all that.
and seeing you depressed, you and those friends you call
end up acting like strangers.



like don`t you 2 ever talk to me.
cos the sight of you guys disgust me.
your so fucking fake pretence, its totally shiit.
and i really have a good mind in giving you 2
a harangue.cos you fucking attitude
makes myy hand feels so itchy,
it has the urged to aim directly at your faces.
arseholes!!!



i`m so tired of homework.
haven`t been sleeping properly for ages.
haiis.today just suck the shiit out of your arses.

will the violins be playing? 20:07 ;