dino years

it`s been dino years since i last blogged.
boo.this is badd.cos myy mama`s badd.
so no internet.but what the heck.
there`s like cables all over the place.
just grabb 1 and plugg it in, will do *((:
clever sarah.BRAVO!!!

finally the loong waiited 1week march holidays.
*siighs* this miserable break, isn`t going to help,
it`s no difference from those normal school days.
go to school for practically everyday. >< hmmph.



since this new url, hasnt been made known to
anyone yet, i guess...
shall just talk post about personal things.
haiis.i dont know how you feel.what you`re thinking.
maybe i am falling for you.
i am really touch by your actions.
all thos little stuffs you do.
i do appreciate it.really.
you were there when i was down.
when i had problems.
you showed me all your care and concern.
thank you so much...
but now.i feel so insecure.
have i accepted you too fast.
to make you feel that i`m so easy to get?!
i miss those times you`ll tell me you missed me.
but i guess those days has loong passed by.
it`s time to move ahead...no more those sweet msges.
i was utterly disappointed yesterday,
that you`d rather go boonlay to get to know more girls,
than walked me home... *)):
so i walked home alone.but guess that was how things
were meant to be; and used to be.
i must prepare myyself to give you up anytime.
`cause i know by your character, this infactuation
wont last loong.one day[like yesterday] you`ll not walk
me home anymore.one day, you`ll stopp messaging me.
one day you`ll stopp talking to me.
one day you`ll stopp everything.
some day, you`ll ignore me...
and on that very day, all the harm you input on me,
i MUST just let you go.without questions.
cause the risk of being with you,
is to be prepared for you to leave me anytime.
you can say, i`m thinking too much, i dont trust him.
what can i say, i dont want to end up,
cryying myy arse off, when i know such things
will happen eventually.i`ll be dumb by then...
*siighs* why must i go through all this.
it hurts more than knowing that the person
doesnt like you.because of you, i have to go through this.
why can`t you change because of me instead?!
haiis.i guess this mutual relationshipp,
someone has to give in ; me.
i don`t like the feeling of insecurity.
in fact i loathe it.why cant you like me more than i do.
i dont want to carry on feeling so unsafe.
anyway how can i be so sure,
you really like me?!you never told me.
haiiss...


and you bloody fucking bastard.
you bring upon all that unecessary hurt.
i abhor you more than anything.
cause you were the thing that ruiin everything.
if you didn`t bloody reacted like a jerk,
that cold warr wouldnt started.
i wont accept that so no genuine sorry.
cause 1 sorry isnt going to turn the tables
after all that you`ve caused.
i`ll blame you for everything that might
and will happen, cause its you fucker,
who bloody started it.argh!!!
just FUCK OFF.and know you limits.

will the violins be playing? 09:32 ;