is this my life

for once i thought i was contented about this life.
but NO.it never fail to put me down and
prove to me that i`m nothing but a failure in life.
and that all this life contains is full of shiit, which
you can all conclude that it sucks like hell.

and to think that maybe things will turn out okaye.
that everything will eventually be alright. ><
disappointed.things just becomes from bad to worse.
its like living hell in this bloody world.



yes regrets.now having second thoughts.
just fucking let go.what am i to deserve you.
fuck.stopp this self-torture and forget about
everything that had ever started.
and get back to your old lifestyle.
your old flame.your previous freedom.
everything you ever possessed.
that perfectos life you`ve formerly lead.
who am i to make you suffer.
who am i to ruin that flauntless life.
who am i to make you depressed.
who am i to cause you to have moodswings.
please just forget about this, and start anew.
at least the hurt and pain will die off quickly.
rather than letting both parties get endure
lasting unnecessary pain.
think about yourself.follow your heart.
i know i was never near it.
so just...

whatever.it`s afterall your decision.
no matter what.i`ll always remember it.
19o3. i`m sorry.it`s not too late to get back
those that had once belonged to you.


it was all but a bloody illusion
and misconception. -



i`m sorry.



this family had loong been deleted
and taken over in myy heart.


you`ll leave me anyway. )):

will the violins be playing? 11:57 ;