life now

okaye it`s been dino years since i last updated.
what the heck.so yeah life`s just the same old stuff,
i guess?!


like what`s the use trying to talk things with me.
when everytime it`s me having to acclimatise
to your every bullshiit.you`ve made me lose all
the respect i onced had for you.
now then did i realised how naive i was.
how i used to look up to you as my role model.
i don`t believe that all mama`s on this planet, earth
is great!!!`cause mine isnt.i think its bloody
unreasonable.whatever i do irks you.
like as if my bro is any better.what the hell.
i hate it.i hate this kind of inequitable treatment.
you so dont have to do such things k.
i can`t use the comp, so why can my bro.
`cause all he has to say is he has to type some
bloody assignment he gets to use it?!
so he has to and after that he gets to use till
pass midnight and all i ever get is some pathetic
5mins and a hell of nagging + yelling + argueing.
which overall takes up that 5mins!!!thanks alot yea.
you say if you die, you wont die peacefully cos
you wont know if i`ll look after my siblings...
by the way i treat them.wasnt you who taught me that?!
you made me the person i am now, yes?!
have you said any pleasant things about whatever i do.
you never once made me feel appreciated.
while you praised my bro like his some living 'god'.
and to you, i`ll be that pile of crapp, that piques you
whenever you see it.just go away.
i`d rather you dont care about my existence.
`cause i dont care about yours.
i dont think i`ve got to answer to you for anything.
i still got my dad.dont get me wrong.
i love my bro.he`s really shuai.but i hate being
compared with him.he is he and i am me.



*TOMORROW IS THE 19!!! *((:
blessed.love ya.thanks for simply everything, really.



dear bestie,
i really hope things will get better.
i know its hard, i understand?!
i`ve got no right to judge him.
but his making you feel so miserable.
i dont want to see you go through this.
i`d say he was never worth it.
it`s just my opinion.nothing i say
will change how your heart feels.
maybe you could take it in a positive way.
maybe things wont turn out so bad.
maybe you`ll be happy and he`ll be too.
maybe just maybe...
i hate to see ppl arnd me so down,
yet i cant do much to make you any better.
i get frustrated myself, what the hell.
okaye anyway.just do take care yea.
no matter what you got me and your many
many many many sons + friends *((:
so hey, how can we so many beings be
compared to some...jk.
cheer up loads.

will the violins be playing? 20:34 ;