friday blues

exams are such a pain in the arse.
we study a whole lot of crapp stuff,
from volcanoes errupting, enzymes denatured
to adolf hitler, letter formatt writing, formulaes...
and what comes out is less then a quarter that
we`ve spend sleepless nights memorising!!!
indeed the world was made to be UNFAIIR.
even the very detail of a pathetic examination.
argh!!!stress.combined humans is bullshiit.
the most aggravating subject to study.
isn`t it infuriating after studying about past,
[not even the future?!] and what we get is just
2 miserable questions, furthermore, you choose
1 out of the 2.[which needs contextual knowledge]
like what the hell, before the paper,
you`re there absorbing as much PAST facts
as possible to answer not even 2 but ONE question.
sbq doesnt need contextual knowledge,
is this pathetic or pathetic mans.
too bad it irks me alot.like why in the world
do we have to know our past, when lifes move on?!
shouldn`t it be the future that we are interested in?!
FUTURISTIC?!
who would want to remember the times of yore.
i`d rather you tell me history as bedtime stories,
cause it sound so ridiculous to mugg for history.
doesn`t it?!yes no yes no yes no?!

anyway tomorrow is mother tongue paper.
mans wish me good luck.i need all the luck
i can get to pass that bloody friggin paper!
oh nono >< *prays hard*
not forgetting chinese oral.ugh!so crapp.
how am i going to engage in a conversation,
with just me and ongong?!his so scary )):
gosh the thought of it is plainly appalling.

- english
- chinese + oral
- biology
- chemistry
- a maths
- e maths
- geography
- combined humanities

i know i didn`t put in much effort on
myy part of studying and being prepared
for the papers.maybe i was distracted?!
i don`t want to make them too happy yet,
i want to prove them wrong.
perhaps i can`t.perhaps parents really do
know their kidds best.NO NO!!!
i wont allow this to happen.
`cause apparently my parents dont.
i know they DON`T!!!they cant.
it isnt possible.and it won`t be.
so i`ve really got to mugg or is it
already too late?!no no.it`s never too late.
what am i becoming now?!haiis
i shouldn`t be giving up so easily.
i won`t admit defeat.well at least not now!
>< STRESS.why must things be so complicated.
i`m really so bushed/pooped/fatigue.



i hope you understand.i can`t afford to,
i really can`t...



i`ve actually got loads to say.but i`d better
think twice before i type any other things.
guess its better kept in the dark, for now or not?!

life was never made for human to understand.
[then why the hell am i studying bio.BULLSHIIT]

will the violins be playing? 18:11 ;