sucks like shiit

today is just total shiit,
not because its ernest birthday.
but what the fuck.so many things happen.


i felt you all were so insensitive.
its not as though i`d plan to lose that money.
why not tryying being accuse,
being responsible for something so important,
then because of under your care,
you let things happen ; theft.
i didnt thought it was imperative.
how ill-omened could we have been.
nevertheless, when i`ve least expected,
money just gets stolen.
i guess i hadnt paid much attention to it.
i`m really sorry, that it took place.
i understand i was responsible for it.
who would want such things to happen?!
perhaps we could have spend more time
discussing on what to do than rambling about it.
i was hurt by what many had saiid.
i cant blame them for being insensitive,
who wouldnt be distress, losing money.
but shouldnt u care more about how to solve it,
rather than pushing the blame to people?!
haiis i dont feel like continueing.


somehow i just wiished someone could
understand how i felt, or at least be there
to listen...you dont know what is like
facing crisis alone.
selfish



my mobile dropped into tt bloody shiit
SCHOOL toilet bowl!!!
llike what the hell.now the camera aint working.
and i`m suuper sadd.what do you know and care anyway.
FUCK OFF.

im bloody piissed like stopp talking to me
in this manner.im not some object for u to
vent your anger when you`re moody or anything.
i wouldnt mind if no one understood
how it was like.why were you never there
when all i wanted was you to be by my side.
you couldnt even understand how exhausted i am.
how so many things happen.
how i`m so busy with dance.
have you showed any care?!
or at least sympathy?!all you do is left
me alone to do my thing, when i was so weak.
mans i shouldnt even rely on anyone.
i should have known...
dont come pissing me off when
i`m stressed enought.shutt up cause you dont
know what the fuck im goin through.
dont bother now, dont bother forever yeah.


and you.bloody shiit.
you sure got no right to hiit me.
cause you make me exist on the surface of this planet.
so hiit yourself before you lay a finger on me.
biitch.i thought you`d at least empathise how i feel
towards so many happenings today.
but no!you just blew you topp,
you set the tone, you shouted,
[obvious reaction] i shouted back.
you made me to.you wouldnt let me
explain to you nicely.you had to make me raise my voice.
how i`d wish to sue in court one day.
YOU HIT ME.cause you were mad at my bro 1st.
and you took me as your scapegoat/your punching bag.
and i, I HATE YOU for that.
cause you dont, and never will hit me AGAIN, bitch
so fuck off.dont talke to me.
till you apologise.bitch.bitch bitch bitch!

cause no one understands.
not even my family.
so dont expect me to trust anyone.

will the violins be playing? 22:14 ;