sians ji pua.zzzz

what`s there to comment today.
i dont know what`s gone into me.
i got to admit i really did get pissed off
quite a couple of times today.
the entire day, i seriously tried so
fucking hard to tolerate and not vent
my anger k, i`m so sick and tired of it.
supressing my own emotions,
it sucks everyone`s arses inside out.
i didnt want history to repeat itself.
why am i torturing myself to satisfy others?!
say i am selfish, self-centered, self-indulgence,
self-obsessed, whatever, arent you all the same?!
i dont know why but, the word stupidity
is stuck in my mind.
everythings just imprudent, foolish...

1 person was enough,
i didnt want another to give me the
same atittude.really its just aggravating.
why am i suppose to accomodate to others.
i never could stand silence,
especially when there i am talking
all the shiit, and what`s the reply,
not a fucking sound.
i mean like no one`s wants
to ever be treated this way,
then who the fuck do you think
you are to do to others?!
i mean like you so enjoy antagonising
people around, how was it like,
if i let you taste your own medicine.
would you feel goood too huhh?!
like have some consideration
for those who care.i can dont give
a shiit mans, it saves alot of my
breath and saliva.
fine then if you dont wish to tell,
i`ll be understandable,
i shant pester you in telling me anythin.
whatever.i`m so fucking pissed,
ITS YOUR LIFE,
do whatever you want.

it`s not coolio, to just give
such atittude, reflect on that mans.
i`m not some non-living thing,
you can dump WHENEVER OR
WHEREVER YA WANT!!!
damn.what the hell am i.


get back to reality.
face the fact that problems are inevitable.
it`s up to you to fucking solve it,
or let things happening under your
very own nose to get by.
like do something, or stoppp
brooding over it since you chose
to not to do anything about it,
so DONT.

i didnt mean to be harsh.
like who is this miserable girl
to criticise on your life.
if you feel offended,
perhaps its true...
unless you had to admit
that life now is pathetic.

everythings getting on my nerves.



it`s obvious who i`d choose to go,
`cause i dont see anything common
between ya`all and me.
it`s not really actually about,
having common interest and all.
since the beginning, i never felt a
sense of belonging, have i?!
i do feel alienated from you guys.
i dont even know why i am in it,
from the start.
thangs arent gonna be like the past,
i wont get affected by your actions
anymore, `cause somehow
to me, the value of it has already
been loss.never am i going
to undergo such agony...
once againg, i was never significant,
always a small fry.the end.
love and passion for dance,
brings us together.

will the violins be playing? 21:20 ;