sore eye

OH and i so wanted to go for geraldine`s barbeque at her house. unfortunately, i got to give that a miss, all thanks to a sore eye. it`s just miserable. i was looking forward to spend a night with snjt, just talking about things we hadnt been talking for a long time. i feel so pathetic. why must all this epidemic happen within a week, ruining all my plans. the sore throat hasnt recovered yet. why must i be plagued with illness one after the other. i just want to be healthy and run around under the sun. my leg`s are aching after yesterday`s dance practice. i`m like the most pathetic weakling struggling to survive on this humongous planet. UGH! so now i spending a fine weather saturday at home. like how many weeks have i been staying at home during the weekends already. this is so sickening. i miss the bustling town area or the peaceful coast...

how i yearn to be rich. so there wouldnt be any unnecessary financial anxieties. and i could spent all i want, get stuffs i have my eyes on. it just seems so unfair. why some people can be loaded. it seems as though cash is the only stress-reliever. there`s so many things on my 'i die die must get list' yet money is sucha problem. my parents arent willing to take me to shopp. i need to satisfy my craving to shopp. my parents are another weiird couple. my mama went nuts last night, she had some arguement with my dad i suppose. she was practically yelling behind those closed doors. couldnt really make out what they were quarreling about. oh well, but anyway she came out to use to toilet, so i was in there using it and she got pissed. like that toilet doesnt belong to you only. you had puffy eyes, and tears blurring your vision, how can you see if i`m giving you a blackface or not. i wasnt anyway. like do you have to rake up the past. whatever mans. all you know is vent your anger on us.

will the violins be playing? 14:28 ;