to you its no biggie huhh

why doesnt it seem to hurt so much. wasnt it suppose to be a happy thang. why is it that most of the time it makes me upset instead. am i asking too much. just a little more giving in, a little more love, a little more care and concern, a little more attention from you, a little more pamper, a little more understanding?! just a bit more. is that alot to ask for?!

in the midst of thoughts, i suddenly felt ger was so admirable. i rarely seen her cry. if i`m not wrong i only saw her cried once, when it was last day of school last year right?! hmm. but yeah. despite many external pressures and other problems, be it academics or relationships or what-so-ever. from her face you may detect the despondency, but she never shed a tear. i truely admire her for that. if i were her, i dont think i might be so cheerful as she is. was just kinda thinking about it...


whatever. happy 8th anniversary. when will it ever be a satisfying one. i only remember on this day of each month, it never fails to have tears flowing. not much difference this month...

finally i feel so fufilled and pleased. after months and months of not shopping, at last, i got to walk in some real mall; suntec city. and what`s good about it was, i had my mama with me. my dad and younger bro went to watch the motor show, while the girls had their walk around suntec. disappointingly, i only got a topshop top and a fox blazer. i was like yearning for more. nah mind. i shant be greedy. it`s time we need to shopp in malaysia. too bad, i`ll be missing the 3 days there ))8 my mama promised to bring me there to shopp some other time. jump for joy peeps! so for now, just bare with it. oh, have not seen my bro for like a loong loong loong time, even though we live under the same roof. he`s been taking 3 part time jobs, so everyday he practically leaves in the morning thn returns home at midnight. i hardly even get a glimsp of him now. but his earning money mans. so unfair. he took up telemarketing, banquet waiter and some stock checker thang. bigg money big money. i hope after getting his pay, he gets me something. c`mon dont be selfish big brother. or maybe like 5o/5o, too much?! thn 4o/6o!? okaye okaye 3o/7o?! shut up sarah. free loader sia. ^^ heee

yeah. i changed blogskin again people. i love dancing. and i added a new song too ; live your dreams. a soundtrack from the movie save the last dance.
heres the lyrics of it :

live your dreams

Here`s the chance of life
Can`t pray to set light
High of the fear of your mind
Go for it, it`s hit or miss
Too late for you to quit
You gotta show em how bad you really want this

Live your dreams, its not as hard as it may seem
You gotta work to get the crean, on your hopes you will see
From your fears, you have to win yourself
It`s all or nothing, Give your everything

Are what you believe, about to bring the heat
Set the pace, competition takes the lead
This is it, all eyes on you
So stay on point, be free
That you deserve, what`s long over due

Live your dreams, its not as hard as it may seem
You gotta work to get the crean, on your hopes you will see
From your fears, you have to win yourself
It`s all or nothing, Give your everything

You brake on, on still recovery
From the heart, brake down another kind
I`m still drying my tears, getting over my own fears
My last time, so I wanna make sure this time
That I`m strong enough, to give it my all

Live your dreams, its not as hard as it may seem
You gotta work to get the crean, on your hopes you will see
From your fears, you have to win yourself
It`s all or nothing, Give your everything

Live your dreams, its not as hard as it may seem
You gotta work to get the crean, on your hopes you will see
From your fears, you have to win yourself
It`s all or nothing, Give your everything

You know you got to live your dreams, so don`t be a free
Just set the base and take the lead, it`s your time to shine

will the violins be playing? 23:54 ;