maturity

"students are not allowed to go home till 5pm; lightning warning!"
yupp. that`s what we heard alright, through the school`s PA system. well most of us, did thought it was some kinda joke, you would too, if you`d actually heard the person broadcasting it.. kinda freaky huhh, LIGHTNING WARNING! mrs png did claim it was send nationwide to all schools, for the safety of the students. wonder what caused this urgent announcement; the weather/ the weatherman. true enough, thunder roared, while lightning flashes through the overcasted/obscured sky..

emo? i wouldnt say i was.
school. can you believe it, the mid-years are like beginning tomorrow!!! it`s tomorrow mans. and i havent started on any revision, rightt. way to go sarah, to your doom. of all subjects, they had to start it with mother tongue [chinese], the shameful subject for me. shame shame, sarah`s a disappointment to her race; chinese. boooohooo!

some times i wonder, why i ever entered this school, to stress myself and compete with people hell smarter than i am? how bu zhi liang li. even with much effort put in, i`m incomparable to them. proves her inanity.

and then, i thought of many other stuffs. like perhaps about the recent news on the mass killings in Virginia tech university. how a born normal guy, can actually end up in a killing spree, and eventually kill himself. i had spend most of my time reading up on it, since adina`s TIMES magazine was featuring about the article. it kinda interested me somehow, maybe caused it had something to do with psychology; that 23-year old student`s state of mind. what had possibly led him to do such ruthless act. then i pondered, if one day, i`d end up like him.. who i`d be cutting short lives. haha unbelievable, i`m sounding more and more like him. still, it`s not really shown what had triggered such well-planned out thoughts.. to kill. apparently, it was reported that he was in control and aware of whatever he was doing. he didnt snapp into a mentally berserk outbreak, he is psychotic but conscious about his every move. some analysis huhh. psychologists had mention, that such exploit, all starts with narcissism. i`m sure you`d be thinking about self obssesion, but after checking it up. there`s actually another meaning ; personality disorder: in psychiatry, a personality disorder characterized by the patient’s overestimation of his or her own appearance and abilities and an excessive need for admiration.
In psychoanalytic theory, emphasis is placed on the element of self-directed sexual desire in the condition. coolio! hmm enough of all these..

i dont know what`s going on in me. just feel really troubled by alot of stuff. i`d better be concentrating on the mye now.


I MISS DANCE. DANCE DANCE DANCE DANCE LIKE UBER ALOT CAN. IT`S PRACTICALLY DRAINING THE LIFE OUT OF ME!

yet i want to tell padey. that i`m really proud of him. cause knowing that those guys are so no life, he tried to reason out with them, hoping some sense will knock into them, or generate something called "maturity" somewhere in them. but too badd.. they cant admit their childishness/ they most prolly thought being mature was childish. HA! wtf. anyway, at least his way cooler then any of them. BOOOO. losers! o0ps :X

TA!

will the violins be playing? 19:18 ;