3more days before school reopens

OH DEARR! 3 more days, till school reopens. that`s a sadd thang people, go to a corner now and weep till the aqueous humour in your eyes dries up, and the eyeball starts to shrivel and perhaps due to the fluctuating temperatures, exfoliation takes place. POPS goes your wrinkled eye, it falls on to the ground, yet it`s unable to roll.. [some imagination!]

i`m still stuck with, 2papers each for Amath and Emath and a few papers [>4] of biology and a whole lot of revision, which i hadnt started larrrrrr.. how screwed up is that! i think i`m some what determined to focus on studies for the next few months. i know i know, it`s sorta retardedly late to come to realisation only now!!! [at least i came to that point?] while everyone else, has already been concentrating on studies, since the end of last year. whatever! well, it all started today, while i was in css getting the certificates signed and all that. i dont know.. i heard too many demoralising comments. i didnt show how affected i was, it was rather thought-provoking. guessed, i`ve convinced myself, that my results aint really that badd. when hell bullshiit, IT IS SARAH! sucha Loser, with a capital L. i dont know how i`m gonna get through DSA, what more in future using my results to get into a decent JC. oh mans, i`m starting to worry about it. i totally suck in studies lar. why did my brother get all the brain genes! cant he leave a portion for me. i dont know what i am good in anymore.. it`s depressing to get low results, when you expected and all-along-thought you`re doing well for that particular subject. it just makes you doubt your own abilities, pondering if the past were just illusory. why do they have to toy with us, encouraging us one moment, and then putting/thrashing our spirits the next. it`s torturous, having to deal with such despondency/ordeal. i`m left with nothing, no dancing, no brains, no talent. i do understand what a letdown i am to my mama, she`s invested so much on my ballet, yet with a word 'NO', i decided to quit. i am shamed and remorseful for doing so. it was for my own good afterall. knowing that i aint academically-inclined, i could have that as my backup. but i ruined my own future. it was even harder for me, than anybody else to give up ballet. i loved it, enjoyed performing.. but things just started to change around in class. the same skeptical sentiments, doubting my abilities.. i couldnt bring myself to continue dancing in there. maybe i wasnt ready to accept critics. it just made me lose even more confidence in myself.

i cant continue.. some other time

will the violins be playing? 23:12 ;